4 posts tagged “lover”
Here's a list of thoughts:
- I took my little cousin to see Transformers this past Friday and it actually turned out to be a movie I enjoyed. I wasn't really expecting much out of a "boyish" action film about robots that transform, but it had a little bit of everything; military, action, kiddy puppy dog romance. I enjoyed it and will definitely get it when it comes out on DVD. My next trip is to see Harry Potter!
- I went to a baseball game yesterday with my mom & the church group. It had been scheduled for about 2 months so I couldn't get out of it. It was boring as hell though; it was too hot to think about anything other than how sweaty you were. I was sweating buckets...I hate being hot. But it was nice to get out of the house for a change. They had a Jars of Clay concert directly after but we didn't stay for long.
- My classes start on August 20th. I'm ready to go as this is my last semester here before I transfer! I have everything set and my classes signed up for. I go this Wednesday to take my placement test for my math to see if I can get into College Algebra, if not I'm stuck with Probability & Statistics.
- I broke up with Albert (boyfriend) yesterday and I honestly haven't felt so relieved in awhile. It sounds harass to say that because it's as if I'm saying "oh I don't care/love him," I do but just not in the way I want/wanted too. After trying so hard & doing everything that one feels she should do too make sure that the other is happy & the relationship is a strong one & keeping communication open, and not getting any help from the other party it becomes too much. I realized in the last month or so that the words "I do care, I do love you, I do want to be with you" meant nothing to him...if they did, he would have showed it and believe me I gave him plenty of time & space to allow him to show me and he never did. I went with how I felt for once and did what I felt was best for me and I'm glad.
My stomach is feeling a lot better; however now I have an entirely NEW problem...my left eye. Yesterday, it got this really weird pain in it; a pain that is hard to explain, it's not a sharp pain or a dull pain, but if I push on the corner of it it's very uncomfortable feeling. I've rubbed the crap out of it because it's been bugging me and now my whole left eye looks bloodshot...I swear I just want to feel better!
In other news, I talked to my boyfriend on the 21st of July and basically told him that I was unhappy and there was not a damn thing he could say this time around to make me feel or accuse me of overreacting or being emotional; this is completely his doing & his fault, and all I have to say about the matter is that if he doesn't shape up & start SHOWING me that he loves me & cares about me & wants to be with me like he SAYS he does, he's going to be seeing the one person who cares about him the most (as he has said himself even) walk out the door. I'm tired of being unhappy, I don't deserve it; does that mean I don't love him or want to be with him? Of course it doesn't, but over the course of my own years of dating & dealing with relationship things between my parents (they are divorced) if there's one thing I've learned it's to take care of myself first & foremost (as selfish as it sounds) and when it comes to my happiness I won't let me be anything OTHER than happy.
I was talking to my bestest this morning on AIM and he sent me the cutest thing...you'll only get it if you play World of Warcraft. It says I heart you or I love you but the love/heart part is an image of a health pot, get it?! :D It made me smile, haha.
There’s always so much going through my head, so much I feel I want to say or write about and then when it comes down to it, I forget everything or don’t type it all out as it is in my head. So this time around I’ll do something different instead and just make a bulleted list like Jenn does instead of writing out a full length all over the place post :P
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I still need to decide on my last class for next semester. It’s either take 1 class on Tues/Thurs which is a class I want to take or take another online class as an easy credit and have two days off during the week. Sigh!
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Wish it wasn’t so hard to find a job. I’ve placed a few applications here and there that I think I’d enjoy working or at least won’t be too hard to work around my class schedule when classes start but I’ve had no luck thus far. It also really irritates me that I’ve applied to this one job that I feel I qualify for and that the posting for the job was taken down a few weeks ago (never got a call for it) and it’s now been reposted. WTH?
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The weather has been way nice as of lately and I’m so glad that I have my grand parents pool to go swimming in. I just need to remember to wear sunscreen from now on and quit being stupid when it comes to the sun; it’ll be my luck that I’ll end up being one of those people that gets skin cancer L
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As previously posted about here, I really need to get out and start using my camera more…there was a reason for them buying me a brand new camera for my birthday aside from using it for my photography class; I miss using it, I want to use it, I guess I just feel like I have no motivation to do so.
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Things with the boyfriend have not gotten any better. I’ve hardly talked to him in the past two weeks and I’m sick of hearing the excuse “I’ve been really tired/busy.” I called him tonight and I even made the comment ‘I just feel like we haven’t talked in awhile’ and he responded with yeah I know we haven’t talked in awhile…then preceded to say how he had a buddy coming over (at 11:30pm!) to help him put together his new PC, so I let him go. Whatever. I’m so over it, I just need to find the courage/strength to tell him how I feel.
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All in all, I suppose I’m doing alright. Bored out of my mind without having anything to do during the day but swim whilst looking for a job, I can’t wait for classes to start so I can get this last semester over with and move on…
Did I tell you who is coming to visit me for Labor Day weekend? Granted it's still about 2.5 months away but I'm so very excited as if the day was tomorrow! Anyways...my boyfriend (eeeeeeeee! lol). See, we have a long distance relationship at the moment; he lives in Florida and I live in S. Carolina. We met through World of Warcraft (I know cheesy) and have been friends for over a year. It wasn't until around the end of 2006 that we started talking more and getting to know each other on a more personal level, I went to FL during my Christmas break and we met up and we've been together since. It's hard though with the distance and such, I've only been down to FL twice (since Dec.) to see him since I can't just pick up & leave because of classes, however he's finally coming up here for Labor day weekend to meet my mom. I'm excited :))
